The Beginning of the End

It is coming to an end.

Do I feel sad?  No.  Do I wish it could go on longer?  Yes.  Now, there is a lump in my throat.
So..I guess….yes, I am sad.

Every end of summer is like this.  Except not exactly.  I put a lot of thought into what I wanted and expected out of this summer.

Just about everything important and more has been successfully completed.

Tonight marks the end of my last full week off.

**I wrote this on Sunday night.  I didn't finish it.  But I want to cross it off my list.

Finally Finished

I graduated with my Master's the day I found out I was pregnant with Christian.  Since then I've only taken one three credit class.  Some friends banned together and we all signed up together.  I took two three credit classes this summer.  I completed one while on our road trip.  It was such a relief.  That meant I had one entire class to finish in just a month.  That actually doesn't seem that bad when I type it out.  However, even though I've had a ton of fun this summer, taking care of three kids is a TON of work.  I really feel like they deserve my time and energy and I've given it all to them.  I did not go to Chuck E. Cheese this morning because it was what I wanted to do, believe me.  But am I glad we went?  Absolutely.  

Tomorrow I have to work all day as well as the following day.  Not bad yet, but soon I will be back full time and have even less energy than I have now at the end of the day.  I have been carrying around my Classroom Management that Works book with me around the house lately.  Reading here and there.  It was not an easy read and I must admit I didn't enjoy it much.  I've been sick of feeling the pressure and decided this morning that today I was going to get as much done as I possibly could.  I spent the full two hours at nap doing nothing but tap tap tapping away.  I did everything I possibly could with as much knowledge as I had.  Brecken woke up and life took back over.  After dinner I put Brecken down at his regularly scheduled bedtime - 5:30 and the big kids were in bed at 6:30.  Christian fell immediately asleep and V read for a bit.  I was reading and typing by 6:40.  I worked all night long and sure enough, I FINISHED!!!!!

What a relief!  After all the complaining all summer.  Thinking about it all the time.  It was constantly looming over me.  It's done.  Hip hip hooray!  I can breathe easier now.  I am exhausted….hoping for a good night's sleep before I have to drop Brecken off in the morning!!

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