It is coming to an end.
Do I feel sad? No. Do I wish it could go on longer? Yes. Now, there is a lump in my throat.
So..I guess….yes, I am sad.
Every end of summer is like this. Except not exactly. I put a lot of thought into what I wanted and expected out of this summer.
Just about everything important and more has been successfully completed.
Tonight marks the end of my last full week off.
**I wrote this on Sunday night. I didn't finish it. But I want to cross it off my list.
Monday, August 18, 2014
I graduated with my Master's the day I found out I was pregnant with Christian. Since then I've only taken one three credit class. Some friends banned together and we all signed up together. I took two three credit classes this summer. I completed one while on our road trip. It was such a relief. That meant I had one entire class to finish in just a month. That actually doesn't seem that bad when I type it out. However, even though I've had a ton of fun this summer, taking care of three kids is a TON of work. I really feel like they deserve my time and energy and I've given it all to them. I did not go to Chuck E. Cheese this morning because it was what I wanted to do, believe me. But am I glad we went? Absolutely.
Tomorrow I have to work all day as well as the following day. Not bad yet, but soon I will be back full time and have even less energy than I have now at the end of the day. I have been carrying around my Classroom Management that Works book with me around the house lately. Reading here and there. It was not an easy read and I must admit I didn't enjoy it much. I've been sick of feeling the pressure and decided this morning that today I was going to get as much done as I possibly could. I spent the full two hours at nap doing nothing but tap tap tapping away. I did everything I possibly could with as much knowledge as I had. Brecken woke up and life took back over. After dinner I put Brecken down at his regularly scheduled bedtime - 5:30 and the big kids were in bed at 6:30. Christian fell immediately asleep and V read for a bit. I was reading and typing by 6:40. I worked all night long and sure enough, I FINISHED!!!!!
What a relief! After all the complaining all summer. Thinking about it all the time. It was constantly looming over me. It's done. Hip hip hooray! I can breathe easier now. I am exhausted….hoping for a good night's sleep before I have to drop Brecken off in the morning!!